I just saw an oversized plastic bag, upright and drifting along the shoulder with the entrained wind from the traffic, decide that now is the time. It changed direction, floated right up and over the jersey barrier, and did a jumper off the Almaden Expressway overpass. Did it right in front of me, happened pretty fast too. It was just gone. I didn’t have time to do anything about it, and I was driving, traffic was flowing pretty good in that moment on 85, but not for much longer. Now, why would it do that? I was thinking more about the air currents around an overpass, but at the end of the bridge deck I had another entirely different answer. A raccoon, roadkill 100%, right after the end of the barriers. The bag was inconsolable, shredded with grief, after the loss of its partner and just gave up. This is the story that immediately popped into my head as I sped past. I admit that I was having a hard time envisioning the relationship; mostly the raccoon just carried the bag, perhaps it was his favorite. And that was enough. I could try to take it further, try to make more sense out of it, but traffic is starting to stack up and I have to pay attention.

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Greyhounds, it is said, cannot back up. I have evidence to the contrary, not that it is particularly helpful in this situation. Ginger, in her heretofore under-appreciated canine curiosity, has followed her nose to the space between the shed and the fence.

No, not that shed, I mean the other one that most people don’t know about because it’s in the dog run on the side of the house by the A/C. Ginger getting stuck in the dog run is rather ironic, especially because since moving to this house we’ve used the gate of the dog run to keep dogs out of there. It’s too unseen from where the people are, and who wants to keep their dog locked up out of sight anyway.

The space between the shed and the fence is just wide enough for Ginger to fit, it’s actually pretty comfortably wide back there. But not at all wide enough to turn around in. That’s not really the problem because not only do I have observational evidence that this particular greyhound can reverse, but I also witnessed it. Once. And then she wouldn’t do it anymore. Maybe my being there reminded her that she doesn’t know how to do that. Anyway, backing up is not enough to get out of this jam because the next level skill that is required is backing up around corners. You see, the space Ginger is in is behind the shed, and in order to get there you have to go down the narrower space between the house and the shed and then turn. The third side, between the shed and the fence, is impossibly narrow, only a couple of inches. Can’t go that way. It’s a little cul-de-sac back there.

I myself just barely fit through between the house and the shed, and transiting the corner didn’t prove to be any more informative than just looking. I retreated back to the space between the shed and the house and interrogated the various aspects with my eyes while also making calming voice noises for Ginger, reassurances that it is unlikely that she would be stuck there for much longer. Surely we would get her out before her parents returned the next day. And to give her a couple of treats, enticement to back up which worked the first time but not the second. The first choice would be to reverse around the corner. I did once get her close to it but some stick or leaves or something was not to Ginger’s preference and so she moved away, her forward direction. And that’s the end of willing backing up from her.

There was only one solution: we would disassemble the fence. Of course finding the right tools would prove to be a minor struggle; nothing is really put away all that organizedly in the garage. Sure they’re all in approximately one place, I think, but the ensemble of tools could do with some de-entropic reprocessing. Anyway, we got Ginger out, no harm done, a little life by misadventure after a week of just trying to survive my cold. Dogs.

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Not that far south of Hollister, make a left at a little complex of buildings or a large farm, depending on how you look at it, that’s the start of it. This is CR J1, the Panoche Road, and it is only marginally maintained. As it winds its way up the Tres Pinos gulch the grand landscape views are presented in miniature. The views are close, the walls rise steeply but not to a particularly great height, and yet all the necessary components are present. The flat valley bottom, the flood plain, it’s barely a hundred feet wide. The creek, mostly dry right now, has cut a sharp vertical channel through it, a couple of feet deep. And the stream bed itself is gravel and stone cobbles. Everywhere along the bottom is green and as the land rises above the tiny plain, the grasses dry and brown. There are some cows here, and some horses there. In the wider places there might be a farm, or a dirt road leading off into the mountains, up some side creek’s draw. The Diablo Range is an intricate place. For the first hour the road is never not bending, always winding, ever routing around some topography. A few cars pass going the other way, but not many.

Then we reach the end of Tres Pinos creek and pass over into Panoche creek’s wash. The land opens up a bit, the road is a bit straighter, at least on a scale measured in multiple seconds of not turning the wheel. The pavement is in no better shape, there are and have been sections that are 50% slapped down asphalt patches. There are still farms, and even small communities. There is an elementary school out here, if you can believe it. At this point we haven’t had cell service for over an hour. In the wide Panoche valley, we pass a solar farm in the distance, and a sign for the Mercey Hot Springs. Stretches of road are only half paved now, sometimes it’s the left half and sometimes it’s the right half. Signs warn “impassable when flooded”. The green is gone and all around is a sea of dry yellow grass. The road makes a couple of those jig-jogs, a right angle right turn followed quickly by a left. It wants to keep going in a straight line, due east, but some property got in the way.

And then we’re on the New Idria road, and stopping at the Griswold Creek BLM day use area. There is beer litter, and old pizza boxes. The sign says no trash pickup and that is true, the trash has not been picked up. Littered in amongst all the carefully collected garbage, some of it is even bagged and ready to go, are shells of all sorts. Shotgun shells, 40 caliber, and a few rifle shells too. There are a few bullet holes in buildings, doors, and posts, but not as many as I expect. The picnic tables and shelters are newish, maybe less than five years old. The pit toilet building is in great shape, minus a few handgun dents and holes in the door, and minus the mess inside. Only use it if you really have to. Not sure the last time the septic was serviced.

There are a few graffitis around; stickers and a couple of tags. We have entered the territory of HTF and KOSE EVICT, whoever they are. There are others too, I can’t make them out.

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The treats they brought back were un-refusable. Ali had seen the message before Jan deleted it and tipped me off. Bouchon is one of the best bakeries around and so I surrendered my resistance and prepared for whatever they brought back to share. This would be a rare treat.

Jeff divided and plated the first four items evenly into five portions, but one blueberry muffin piece fell and was lost. Not everyone agreed that the rule for things touching the floor is zero seconds, maybe particularly so for delicately crumbed blueberry muffins. There was no disagreement about it once it had entered the trash can. No matter, there was tasting to taste and so we all proceeded to the back patio table and into the perfect September 1st evening.

The question, as always, is the order in which to proceed. Plate One was the easier of the two. Obviously it is croissant to pane chocolate then blueberry muffin and finally the Oh-Oh. One could argue for swapping the last two, but it’s hard to know ahead of time when you are only estimating the flavor profiles. I don’t regret my choices, but I should have considered harder if I wanted to finish with the blueberry muffin. It had a bit of lemon.

The next pieces were cut into four, not five, and divided at the table al fresco. Jeff again did the cutting while the rest of us closely monitored the situation. Ordering the second plate posed a much harder challenge. Peach chiffon cupcake, cinnamon roll, Kouign-Amann, Better Nutter. Well, it’s an order but I’m not sure it’s the rightest one. My theory was that lightest to heaviest, in taste, and I’m not even sure if I followed that. In hindsight, cinnamon roll, chiffon cupcake, Better Nutter, Kouign-Amann would have been a better choice. Or maybe the chiffon first again. Nothing to be done about it now, and honestly I have no regrets with these choices either.

Ten out of ten, would do it again. But not for a couple of months, I hope. I’ve got goals for the gainz and my first lifterversary is coming up.

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The courtyard on the outskirts, between Nordstrom’s EPUB coffee bar and the blank side of the Crate & Barrel, wasn’t the first place I noticed, but it is where I spent the most time observing. I was having a water break, and sat in the shade under the lilac tree on the tiled rim of its giant pot. It wasn’t a hot day, but it was hot enough and all the shaded patio tables in the half-fenced area were taken. A well-dressed guy in a tan blazer and blue oxford shirt, maybe a doctor or some other researcher from the adjacent Stanford medical center or even the university, slouched over the table, head down and evidently having a rest. Maybe he was even napping under his dark sunglasses. Another young man, also in business attire but this time a navy sport coat and a light blue shirt, sat with several plastic takeaway salad bins from the EPUB counter. The evidence suggested that he was on an extended lunch break; he had been at the same station an hour earlier when I started my inaugural tour of the shopping center. These two guys didn’t appear to me to be shoppers at these outpost shops, nor to be employees on break from their duties in the shops. Members of both of those cohorts were evident and obvious in the patio as well, scattered about and the former mostly solo, the latter in small groups around a table or making an order.

The space surrounding the patio seating puts either building some noticeable distance away. And the rectangular fenced area itself, occupying the closer-to-Nordstrom’s half of a square that surrounds the central tree is even larger still. All this space wasn’t so obvious in the moment. The few people walking through, except if they came into the lunch pen, they had no reason to approach one another at all out there. An elegant and reserved older shopper carefully carried her salad kit from the counter window to the small table next to my seat, and the clutch of young employees exiting the Nordstrom’s brass and glass doors for a break took another table closer to the store. A large circle of the floor is paved with a grid of plain terracotta and sculpted, colorfully hand painted, tiles. Occasionally a small group of construction workers passed through the gap between the buildings on the right, outside the fence, still wearing hard hats and electric green safety vests, on their way to or from some project. Crate & Barrel’s facade on the far side is a tall brick wall with a metal sash covering the bottom half rather like an armored reinforcement. It’s a high wall, far away.

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Miles and miles of mountains that fall into the sea, and just a narrow shelf at the edge that is sometimes submerged by the tide.

This was a short notice trip, Tony spotted the permits available on recreation.gov, available in about a week. We went for it, committed and reserved them, made it happen. The drive takes hours and just leads deeper into the north coast outback beyond on highways through city and enormous trees, over deep canyons and rural logging mountains. It all fades away, coastal farming valleys filled with summer grasses, low water levels and steel bridges. The coastline here is completely undeveloped.

Making this hike is all about timing and getting from point A to point B before the tide comes in and washes away all traces. There are only a few safe harbors to overnight in, especially in the last southern stretch of it, so you’d better be sure and you better have your tide chart.

There are miles of various sized gravels which can be fairly cruised over, and other than the unevenness and the off-camber angles they’re always pitched at, there isn’t much to complain about. The tide’s still coming in, but it always is doing that.

And there are miles of soft sandy beach to walk on, a beautiful misery when you have somewhere to be by some time. The sand, it drags your feet, especially near the end.

Deer tracks lead down to the ocean’s edge. A couple of bear tracks too. Even the wildlife is playing games in the water.

Then there are miles of head-sized wet boulders to carefully trod. These rocks, they’ll break your ankles if you aren’t careful. What a sound that stretch must make under the surf.

And finally, there are miles of trail up on the coastal plateau, soft dirt track that after the shore-miles make you fly so fast that you would rather slow down a little.

Except at the main camps. During the day, when everyone is transiting, they are empty. But toward day’s end, hikers begin to accumulate and collect, to find a spot to pitch their tent for the night under tree or log, in any hollow space, waiting for the next leg.

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There were a few small straggly bits, not much magnetic tape was missed. I looked for any other remains of the huge mess from last week along the center median of 85. Some few pieces of it fluttered and glinted in the breeze, but most had been cleaned up by someone, a highway worker or a good samaritan, or some unknowable party doing the good work to keep our city’s infrastructure at or below a threshold level of dirtiness. There was still plenty of other trash along the sides of the road: a five gallon bucket lid, pieces of blown apart tire, a flattened In-n-Out Burger paper cup, a pair of shoes¹. All the usual things and just enough of them to look regular, look just as it usually does. I kept looking for the tape, and I really didn’t see much.

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There was about a half mile of magnetic tape strewn along the center median of 85, just past the Almaden Expressway. It was wide tape, VHS or even bigger, hard to say for sure even though traffic was crawling. You don’t see it like that anymore. Tape trash was a common thing to see on the side of the road, wrapped around and twisted and engrossing other bits of rubbish like seaweed. It’s been years, decades, since I’ve seen anything like this. The plastic-metal glinted in the road breeze and fluttered in some places, but mainly it held fast around the things it was wrapped. It stretched on and on while the congested traffic oozed forward. There was one boxy object, possibly the source, broken sheet metal enclosure mostly covered in the tape, and a green electronic board exposed. I didn’t see any broken VHS cases, large tape wheels, or any other tape holder; I don’t know what kind of tape this is or what information, video, audio, data, it might contain. Further up the highway I saw echoes, little bits more every now and then over the next couple of miles, more tape strewn along the center median but no more boxes, nor any other clue about the origin or contents despite my searching over every bit. The bits diminished, tapered out, ended, but I still wondered about it. Would it be there for weeks or only this morning? Was it video tape or audio masters, or just trash already on the way to the dump? It is unknowable.

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The Cheesecake Factory was more middle class than I expected, there was a veneer of ostentatiousness, especially near the perimeter of the space, but the interior was much less decorated.¹ It was a large volume of space, the ceilings were as high as they could be, perhaps 30 feet, maybe even 40, but the decorations were actually minimal. The relative plainness surprised me. The entrance is richly decorated, both entrances, the mall exterior one and the interior one. It is a magic kingdom expression of luxury; there are two other restaurants that I have been in that are similarly projecting grandness: The Grand Lux, which I believe is the same restaurant group as TCF, and a Cuban restaurant in Queens. This iteration of the TCF seems to have gotten the walls up, and installed the stone topped tables into the densely upholstered booths, and stopped about there with building out the grand facade.² The feature that keeps drawing my eye is the distant ceiling. It’s finished in dark wood, but otherwise unadorned except for the fire sprinkler nozzles that poke through at regular intervals. It’s such a huge expanse, and dramatically high, but there isn’t anything of interest for the eye to examine. Just a big empty volume up there. What effect this has, as I search for something to rest my eye on, is that I notice that the decor is actually quite thin in a lot of respects. Mahogany panels and great mirrors, stone tabletops paired with some rich-enough upholstery. A high cavernous ceiling. And that’s it.

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The Bernal school, which is not on Bernal, is another that is right up against the edge of the Santa Teresa hills. They put these Oakridge schools as far out as they could, it seems. Across the street are those hills, and the Bernal ranch house, and a historical plaque too. The hills, they rise up. Towering might be too strong a word for them; their rise is just a bit too gentle for that, but they have a nugget of drama and are beautiful in their own way for the slopes and the rounded tops and their smooth shoulders. There is a bit more of the valley plain in one direction, which puts a bit of space, a small amount of distance between us and the hills from the school yard vantage, and that flat contrasts nicely with the hill. You can take it in just that much more. The Santa Teresa hills are not large ones in anybody’s index of hills, which makes it easy to forget that all prominences worthy of the name “hill” are enormous on a human scale. From here, at the Bernal Intermediate School, with that bit of space between us, the relative enormity of the hills can be appreciated.

Standing here at the foot of the hill, at the tip of the toe, and looking up the incline toward the top, trees and rocks and high tension pylons are forced by the perspective into fooling shapes. Huge oaks are regular sized oaks, but closer. Walking up to the top, or a particular tree part way, does not seem to be so far. Surely it would only take an hour to get there, or at most the afternoon.

The same cannot been said for the view across the expansive valley plain. That always appears to approach the infinite. Perhaps it is just that being slightly less than infinite that drives the illusion of the hills. The distance up the hill is obviously finite: there is a top up there. You can see it.

The front tip of a ridge reaches out and just touches the schoolyard. It rises, inviting, all the way to the top and the power lines up there could be any size, any distance. Surely I could get there before dark. And maybe even back again.

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The rocks are in a different configuration, but that has always been true. There are still rocks. And there are still waves, and still sand. The creatures that are here have been here since long before I came on this shore. Crabs and clams and sea palms all cling to the rocks. Damp cold sand clings to my hands and feet, getting between my fingers and toes. Barnacles and anemones and starfish hold hard in the surf, beaten by the waves yet they persist as the tides rise and fall. The crawlies, the crabs and chitons, the starfish too, they are all moving to where the churn is. The stayers stay put. They move in a different way, generation after generation. The cold air and water, the relentless waves, all push me from staying here too long.

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The berry farm, Gizditch’s, was only u-picking boysenberries. An old woman on her way out met us at the bridge, happy and carrying juice stained containers full of berries with juice stained hands. Between wide smiles she told us that she had picked last week and made a pie and was back again for more. The furthest rows, the back ones, still have the best berries, she said. So, after taring our containers with the farm kids, we walked out into the field and found the berries at the back and began to pick and sample and drop and even put some in our containers. Picking these berries is a tricky business; the bushes have lots of small thorns and some big ones. The droops, the clusters of little dooplets that we normally call berries, are sometimes barely held together because of how ripe they are. Pulling on the berry itself yields stained fingers and a tiny pile of disassembled ballettes, the individual droops, on the ground. All this berry biological anatomical specificity is really hard! The trick is to pull on the cap, the little green flower shaped lid that housed the proto-berry before it began to fill with juice and ripen, and then drop the cap but keep the berry in your cupped hand. My success rate of doing this was in the 90% range, which I think would be considered quite low if I was doing this professionally. So much price paid for so few berries in the mouth or bucket. But they’re so good! We netted 6 pounds of berries, red-purple hands, and more than a few scratches and thorns. Pulling on the caps, while not exactly safe, had come to feel like the most natural way to get these juicy delights out of their brambley homes. My hands were pricked and scratched, and happy.

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The wind whipped past us, surprisingly fast and consistent on the way up to the tower. It was cool enough that long sleeves became necessary in a short time. The winds grabbing fingers took Jeff’s hat right off his head once and tried a second time but Jan was ready. The clouds above were close and kept getting torn into little pieces; they rushed past just overhead.

The Coyote peak radio tower, our destination, is at the top of a steep walk from the park parking lot. It’s a relatively straight shot, only one switchback and a twist around the top of the hill. The bend back happens as we transit the gate and pass under the power line. The tower rises three sided and so many triangles; it is dotted with dozens of reflector dishes and studded with so many stubby cellular spikes. The tower complex is not only the tower, but a couple of buildings and it’s got a large tank too, bigger than either of them, maybe 5000 gallons. The building’s HVAC systems hum audibly above the wind and nearby trees rush and murmur in the streaming air. The tower itself is silent.

On the return trip, the passing cloud shreds finally dissipated, and with them the wind dropped to calm.

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The lat pulldown machine is the only machine in the gym with a one pound increment, and the only machine with a seat belt. The only machine with a foot pedal. It’s a strange machine. Many machines in the gym have adjustments and this one adjusts the seat up and down so that it hinges where I hinge at the shoulder; the pulldown motion concentric with my arm’s motion. The bar comes down from above to my middle.

Start with arms above my head, hands resting gently on the bar, weight pressing into the backs of my elbows. And then push forward and down. It’s easy. The feeling of cycling the machine is different from any of the other machines. Repeat. The weight hasn’t changed, yet it gets harder. Controlled arms on the return, slow the weight’s fall. It gets more challenging. Soon, after a few repetitions, I can barely get the bar down to my middle, even with a grunt, a heave, and a lean. Which is kinda cheating. At least it’s bad form. Yet I press on, and strain for all my reps, or at least until the fatigue point and I can’t move the bar no matter how hard I will it.

The vinyl seat and industrial paneling that covers the machine’s frame recall both the idea of an institutional facility, a dentist’s office, and the idea of an amusement park ride. To ride this ride I put on the lap belt, adjust the seat, and pull down the bar to my waist. Over and over until the attendant tells me to stop. They might change the settings a bit, to make it harder if it was too easy, or make it easier if it was too hard. And then I repeat, maybe ten times, or maybe fifty. Sometimes I get to ride it three or four times, and sometimes twice is all that’s needed. And then I’m done. I put my foot on the pedal, lift the bar over my head, and unbuckle the belt. Step out and move on to the next ride.

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The strong smell of fresh earth became noticeable in the dark night air. Ebi was digging again, and all of us began to pay her more attention and admonish her to stop with a sing-song “Ebi, uh-uh!” It was only once that we were too distracted by our own jokes and word plays and humorously strange logical fallacies that we had missed it when the greyhound started digging again. Ebi had quite the number of small excavations started around the backyard, but one pit in particular was big enough that her front half disappeared into it. When we called out the “uh-uh!” with just the right melodic notes, she would know we meant it and stop for a second to turn, bending almost in half to look over at us all seated around the patio table. Most of the time she did stop what she was doing and some of the times she considered carefully whether to start again on the next hole she passed on the way back to the patio and her bed.

The jokes continued. Well, they weren’t really jokes. Our nutty logic ran on while we sampled two different kinds of dates and three different kinds of chocolate chips. There was a single bowl of mixed nuts on the table too; almonds, peanuts, and cashews. There was a real difference between the two types of dates, something that we hadn’t realized before. The chocolate chips, while all different, were also all kind of the same. Even the sugar free ones. And the nuts needed more salt.

We retold our earlier conversation about chitin, chitons, and chitons to a bewildered friend that had stopped by to borrow a baking dish, and we laughed and re-laughted about it all. Our friend was just confused and we tried to reconstruct how we got there to begin with. Our friend said “you guys sure covered a lot of ground today,” and though she was remarking on our south bay tour from Morgan Hill to Santana Row and Valley Fair and then on to Whole Foods and the Bass Pro Shop, I think she was also talking about our limitlessly zany conversational leaps.

We paired crossbreeding savannah cats with house cats to Superman because they can jump unusually high, and the fact that the more generations that are again crossed with domestic cats, the smaller the next generation becomes, with fleas which also jump very high for their size. We tested the leaps against facts; savannah cats are known for their swimming, so jumping high is a necessary capability for catching flying fish! Are there flying fish on the savannah?

A lot of it had to do with rhymes, or echoes as one word begs for another and anything that we reach for injects more chaos and new entropy into the conversation. That entropy, oddly, drives the engine of our engagement; the ridiculousness of it all was loudly entertaining.

Ebi had snuck out into the yard again, in the darkness, and had tentatively started digging again. “Uh-uh, Ebi! Uh-uh!”

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The parking lot is full, like completely full. There are cars prowling. This is an ordinary grocery store on an ordinary Thursday night. There is no reason for this parking lot to be completely used up. The only other time I have ever seen Nob Hill’s parking lot begin to get full is during the after school pick up time when parents abuse the proximity of this parking lot to the high school kitty corner across the intersection. So. It is nearly the end of the school year, summer is upon us, just this morning the middle school kids we see almost every morning were celebrating that there is only a week left. For us it means an end to the morning rush of dropping off kids at the school only a block from our house, a reason for us to celebrate too. Evidently not yet in this parking lot. Some school event is going on. I give up my search for a parking spot, it’s not happening, and I am out of time for this. I will not be getting my groceries tonight, and I am actually kinda mad about it.

This madness, about being thwarted, it also surprises me. Normally I take almost everything in stride. This is one of those events on the other side of that “almost everything”. I had a schedule laid out, and on any other Thursday night, it would have worked just fine. So there is some time pressure, an expectation of the world’s behavior, and an unsatisfied need. Well, the world had other plans. That school had some event and all these parking spots were required, first come first served, buddy.

I floored it as I turned onto Santa Teresa and headed for home. A pointless gesture, maybe some steam was let off, but not a lot and not anything of any meaning. I was still tense and frustrated and itchy while I waited in the left turn lane. It’s not a sports car, my Subaru Outback station wagon, not one of the WRX models that pretends to be a racer. But that doesn’t mean it’s completely devoid of the juice, so when the light turned green, I gave it some extra as I turned onto Blossom, and then the steam let out and well, whatever. I’ll do something else for my nightcap meal tonight and it will be just fine.

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I’ve always been struck by the middle view, the “middle airs,”¹ of the Redwood trees. From a steep hillside trail in the Santa Cruz mountain forests, one is both high above the gully bottom and far below the canopy top. Sometimes the trunks are near, right off the trail, and you can appreciate the bark’s stretched and growing nature, the outer skin of the tree literally ripping and separating in long vertical gashes as the enormous organism continues, unbelievably, to grow. Glancing down, the floor far below. The tree is a mostly straight cylinder, flaring out only slightly at the base. Looking above, it rises up up up in an un-shrinking round far above to the beginnings of a few branches here and there, and the full crown at the top. The view is both a calm examination of the stately middle of these great trees and a dramatic edge-on view of their stupendous heights.

I have sometimes seen this view in a Douglas Fir forest, which might be the only other tree on the west coast that can rival the Redwood in terms of height and size, but the native habitat of that tree is arranged much differently. The necessary verticality is hard to find, and even harder to find is the long term stability necessary to grow trees to such a great height.

So I savor the Santa Cruz mountain’s middle airs, and the rare beauty of the strong straight vertical lines of these trees. The middle part is high above the floor and has much higher to go. I hope they grow even higher in the years to come.

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The black Tesla is speeding and braking and lane changing and routing around the slower cars. It’s leap-frogging through the light traffic to get ahead and go even faster. At times I’m driving nearly 85; it’s after 7 and we’re all flying down the 85. Just going with the flow. The other side is practically empty, at its natural and quiescent state for this time of the evening. There are a couple of lonesome cars heading toward Mountain View, they have a free hand to choose their own speed in the golden hour glow. On our side there has been only one stretch where we all collectively slow to about 60, and that’s for no apparent reason. Soon we’re back into the high 70s, which is evidently not fast enough for this Tesla. I notice a bright blue Lambo, a fun toy color, heading north on the other side of the cement barrier, just cruising north unhurriedly. On our side the Tesla accelerates and lane changes into a slot between two cars, barely big enough, to edge past a slower Honda (only going 73 mph) in the right most lane. As soon as they are clear of it they lane change back and zoom off to the next car and pass it too.

They had come from behind, before the Bascom onramp, and I lose them around Camden. They either exited or got far enough ahead that I can’t see anymore. What I do see is the North-going lanes of 85 have expanded to five, and they’re all empty. There, a vast ocean of bare and grooved pavement; on our side we are still going fast but there is the jostle of us all together rushing.

They’ve gone on, somewhere, and I wonder when the next ‘black Tesla’ will appear and perform again. Will the next be better at it, or worse? I keep going to my own exit, to become lost to these others jostling with me down the highway.

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The uniformed man walked past, straight down the middle of the two rows of chairs, perfectly ordinary. He’s young-ish, he’s wearing a hat, a baseball cap, but I didn’t catch the logo. When he got to the back of the shop, I lost interest in his activities, but on recollection I see that he entered the scene empty handed, which is odd for a delivery person or service man. When I glance at him again something slightly odd is happening. He’s got the carboy out of the water dispenser and is looking at the main body of the dispenser itself. Maybe a repair? The carboy is empty. Everything seems normal. But then I see that the dispenser is unplugged and he’s holding the cord. He picks it up and hoists the whole thing onto his shoulder. My eyes track him, head held still, as Maria continues cutting my hair. The empty carboy is in his other hand and he walks back out right down the dead middle of the chairs with all of it. He doesn’t look left or right, and says nothing to anyone.

They’ve started taking the place apart. Maria says it’s been like this all week. There were some workers out measuring at the front of the shop a day or two ago. “Bro, we’re still here,” she says, gesturing toward the emptying room, the barbers beginning to pack combs and trimmers, the decorations barely still hanging on the wall. One of the other clients leaves a bottle of tequila for them, after his last haircut. I send a larger than my usual tip along with the payment. Maybe I’ll see her again at the next barbershop.

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Where did that banana slug go? It was just here, in the middle of the campground, but now it’s nowhere. I am scanning the perimeter, checking the trees, looking under my seat, under my feet. It’s just gone. It was making a slow meandering arc near the middle of my camp site. I must have gotten distracted long enough while making some notes for it to get away. I was about to name it Jerry.

There have been quite a lot of the bright yellow slugs this weekend. On the trail, in the trees, trying to get into the food, sliming across the notebooks and plein air artworks, that same slug trying to get in the food again. I’ve been quite surprised at the uncountable¹ number of them, and I only saw the ones that I almost stepped on or passed through camp. That’s an infinitesimal fraction of the number that must be present and endemic in these woods.

Do the slugs survive forest fires? Or do they recolonize the burned zones, diffusing inward from the perimeter after the winter rains return and quench the smoldering ashes? I had visions of Jerry and its clan making deep penetrating expeditions into the scar’s interior, far from the green and unburned edges, to establish little slug dynasties. But I’ve never seen a platoon of slugs. They seem to be solitary, or maybe a pair in the midst of a passing embrace. Solo slugs are all I’ve ever seen. Organizing such slug expeditions is a secret affair, behind closed doors, if it’s happening at all.

Still, Jerry does have some defenses, an anesthetic or analgesic in the mucus along the top of its backs. It’s something, but is that the only reason there isn’t a predator that feeds on this silent sliding abundance? I haven’t seen much other animal life, a curious crow, briefly another camper, and have heard a few other birds. The Santa Cruz mountains can be strangely soundless; my other visits have been similarly silent. Most woods are quiet, but these ones, with their tall redwoods and plentiful banana slugs, they seem especially so. Come to think of it, the silence is strange, eerie even. Maybe I should be concerned, I think as I slowly glance over both my shoulders at the log I’m leaning against. No Jerry there either. I confidently thought I was the apex predator in these woods, but what if it’s Jerry?

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Our pants are getting wet, quite a bit more wet than I had anticipated and the umbrellas aren’t helping much. It’s almost June, June is in 3 days, it doesn’t rain in California in June. Or late May. And yet, it is raining, and windy, and our pants are getting really quite wet, and we continue on our morning walk routine with determination because we have a lot to say and it is still raining. No one else is out on this morning, notably vacant of other pedestrians, pets, and even cars. We are a little earlier than usual but not that much; everyone else has elected to stay indoors. Despite all the water on the ground, in the air and falling from the sky onto our pants, a very NorCal winter looking situation, in contrast to all of that it is a very comfortable temperature out in the flat gray morning light. Just right for a sweatshirt. A perfectly cool temperature. That it looks like winter but is not is a rare sensorial delicacy we found only accidentally and by venturing out into the uncommon and unusual circumstances. The only cost is that I will be changing my pants when I get back home.

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The inside of the chimney tree is completely charred black, but the tree’s outside still has brown bark in a lot of places. All this damage looks still fresh; a recent¹ addition to the trail camp and barely changed in the two years since my last visit. Campers haven’t touched and eroded the surface. It’s still a perfect crystalline black; the living cellulose converted to dark carbon and trace elements. Chimney tree is the burned hollow trunk of a large old redwood, still standing upright and enterable at the base. Looking up through the center you see the dizzying clear blue sky above. The top is gone, and a substantial amount of the sides too. From the outside the trunk rises and splits, vertical unsupported cylinder arcs rising 50 feet or more. It stands, still free, amongst the green younger relatives that survived the fire. A giant parent among the youths that rise now above its former shadow. The young ones are barely taller now than the hollow stump that remains.

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The forest is misty at five in the morning, and the air still and quiet. The wind broke sometime late in the night and the air was now only gently drifting. I was returning from the trail camp’s pit toilet, deciding what to do next in the dim pre-dawn gray. The edges of the trees are all softened in the pale atmosphere. Trail camp is at 1580 feet above the sea and I had expected to be in the clouds more than some of this weekend, but it had not happened until this morning, the last morning. There had been only blue skies and the tireless wind, and some thin shreds of white racing overhead, just out of reach.

But the wind had tired of its constant 30 mph or more racing and gusting in the green tops of the blackened red giants. Now it was something much less, something rarely heard and only faintly felt.

The low roar, the distant rumbling that had been noticeably palpable since the wind had picked up the night before last, it’s not gone. Perhaps it is not wind in the trees’ trunks. It could be waves on the coast, or maybe it’s still windy in the trees where the sound is coming from, where the wind has gone for a rest.

The sun is rising. I can see the crinkles in the tent’s rain fly in the grazing dawn light, and the tiny faint dots on the pages of my notebook without the flashlight.

Soon I will go back out, go for a walk in the misty dawn light and look, again, for the landing strip in the still air with the distant low roar. An airstrip is an improbable thing to find on the top of a ridge, in the middle of a redwood forest in the clouds, far away from everything. The map says it is there, so I will look for it.

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The wind blew all night in the trees, loud swishing & shushing in the high-high branches of the ridge top redwoods. Corrie had said yesterday that there was a wind advisory for the weekend; I had not noticed it on the forecast when preparing for the backpacking trip. In the morning, Saturday morning, I woke at my usual time, early and in a tent, in the first trail camp at Butano State Park and the sound continued. The sound is really two sounds; there is also a low infrasonic rumble which is much further away.

There was only one time in the night that I heard a branch fall. I had been trying to fall asleep and so I spent the next hour making a big effort to avoid thinking too deeply about what falling branches might imply about my current specific location in the middle of a stand of trees over 100 feet tall with little of substance between my person and heavy things up high and wind advisories and loudly whispering trees’ tops. I was not very good at avoiding thinking about what it meant. Phrases like “he died doing what he loved” kept crossing my mind, and while it is true that I did love doing this, this was not how I had imagined it. But I heard no more branches-falling-in-the-night sounds for a long time even though the wind continued relentlessly.

I somehow thought, while in my tent in the middle of the windy night, that I would be able to do some empirical science in the morning having to do with counting the newly fallen branches per square meter, and perhaps the pattern that they fell in to determine the source tree and if I should only move my tent or remove my person from the park entirely. What I failed to remember during this nighttime exercise in both actuarial warding and failed distraction was that the forest is already completely littered with fallen branches. Even without my glasses, in the dim morning light on my way to the camp pit toilet, I could not avoid noticing this fact. There is a lot of time in the forest for branches to fall.

Corrie had also mentioned yesterday that this particular toilet had been rebuilt numerous times because trees keep falling on it. That observation is much more ominous now, in all this wind, surrounded by all these trees and searching for some statistical evidence to support a decision about what I should do with regard to my personal safety.

Later, after the bathroom, and after not counting any branches, while I was fetching my coffee things from the metal bear box I noticed something and admitted that I had told myself a very different story about the metal twang in the branch-falling-in-the-night sound last night. My water bottle was lying on its side.

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